Spontaneous Predictability

Lately, I’ve been doing lots of digital art. Drawing with pens is hard on my arthritic hands. I throw a little virtual paint on the canvas of my computer screen and brush it around with an assortment of ‘brushes’ It’s fun. Most of the time, I start out without plans for a certain design. It’s spontaneous.

I discovered that I could create a design with my paint program, then send that design to my picture program and distort it to create new designs. The end result looks like an arrangement in a kaleidoscope.

I’ve always loved kaleidoscopes. As a child, they were my favorite toys. I could create a whole new world with something that fit inside of my hands. I liked to be able to see the mirrors inside of the toy. The effect the reflections created could fascinate me for hours on end.

The pattens I saw were endless. I enjoyed gently tapping on the side of the toy to make even more designs. Sometimes, I even saw faces in the patterns, Many of the new designs I’ve created have faces in them. I see animals and people. I told you I was weird. Believe me now?

I suppose I like patterns because they’re repetitive; they’re consistent. The interesting thing, though, I can create entirely different ones each time. I like dependability and variety. I suppose I’m a lot like the designs I create. You can depend on me for certain things. Yet, I can be very unpredictable. Life is that way, isn’t it?

You can go outside and see the patterns in nature. The veins in a leaf look a lot like a tree. Some tiny sea creatures look like flowers. Onions have rings inside of them just like trees. Still, nature is unpredictable. It can take the kaleidoscope of our world and shake it violently, forever altering our lives. We can’t control any of that. We can only pick up the pieces and rebuild.

I like to do a variety of things and work them into my every day life. There are certain things I have to do every day, yet I allow for doing things spur-of-the moment. I guess being chronically ill has affected me that way. I have a hard time making plans, because I don’t know if I’ll be able to follow through. To cope with the disappointment, I find other things to do.

Oh, these are some deep thoughts, aren’t they? I’m capable of thoughts that run the gamut from silly to serious. The kaleidoscope of my mind is always changing. Maybe that’s why I create these designs? I know what some of my friends are thinking, reading this: Mel’s OCD is acting up again. Could be.

I realize that not many people would want art like this hanging on their walls. I’m taking the chance of making it available, anyway. Maybe there’s someone else who thinks in kaleidoscope. Maybe there’s someone else who can see the random things of life in patterns and take lessons from it. Maybe there’s someone else who appreciates random predictability.

‘Mystery Cats’

Spontaneous Predictability